I didn’t cry today.

Your ads will be inserted here byEasy Plugin for AdSense.Please go to the plugin admin page toPaste your ad code OR Suppress this ad slot. It’s been two years. I went to school, thinking that I did not want to be home alone. Students had early dismissal and a basketball game today. There would not […]

17 Years

Your ads will be inserted here byEasy Plugin for AdSense.Please go to the plugin admin page toPaste your ad code OR Suppress this ad slot. 17 years ago today, I said “I do.” Popular culture says I should have been nervous. Ready to flee. Afraid of the “ball and chain.” I was never so sure […]

Things I Miss

The slight chuckle you’d give when I said something stupid that you invariably thought was sweet. The routine we had where I’d ask if you wanted supper and you’d say “yes,” but then wait until I asked what you wanted to eat. The small, sympathetic sound you would make when it was obvious I was […]

Firsts

The first time I say “goodbye” instead of “I’ll be back.” The first time I see your family without you. The first time I go to your favorite restaurant alone. The first time I can look at your picture without crying. The first time I mix present and past tense when talking about you. The […]

Observations

My alarm got me up just after 1 am. I remember turning it off. I have no alarm set for that time, but now I can’t sleep, so I guess I’ll write instead. I keep seeing things that remind me of her. I keep  hearing things in conversation that make me think she would find […]

Goodbye

This is the last picture I ever took of Kelli. She was admitted for abdominal pain and it was determined that she needed her gall bladder removed. The routine, non-invasive surgery couldn’t be done because of all the other surgeries Kelli’s had throughout her life, so they had to do the old school “giant cut […]