{"id":899,"date":"2016-06-27T07:12:10","date_gmt":"2016-06-27T11:12:10","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/aaronbsmith.com\/photos\/?p=899"},"modified":"2017-06-28T07:54:24","modified_gmt":"2017-06-28T11:54:24","slug":"firsts","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/aaronbsmith.com\/photos\/2016\/06\/27\/firsts\/","title":{"rendered":"Firsts"},"content":{"rendered":"<ul>\n<li><a href=\"https:\/\/aaronbsmith.com\/photos\/2016\/06\/27\/firsts\/kelli23star\/\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-900\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-900\" src=\"https:\/\/aaronbsmith.com\/photos\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/06\/kelli23STAR.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"960\" height=\"960\" srcset=\"https:\/\/aaronbsmith.com\/photos\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/06\/kelli23STAR.jpg 960w, https:\/\/aaronbsmith.com\/photos\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/06\/kelli23STAR-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/aaronbsmith.com\/photos\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/06\/kelli23STAR-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/aaronbsmith.com\/photos\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/06\/kelli23STAR-768x768.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 960px) 100vw, 960px\" \/><\/a>The first time I say \u201cgoodbye\u201d instead of \u201cI\u2019ll be back.\u201d<\/li>\n<li>The first time I see your family without you.<\/li>\n<li>The first time I go to your favorite restaurant alone.<\/li>\n<li>The first time I can look at your picture without crying.<\/li>\n<li>The first time I mix present and past tense when talking about you.<\/li>\n<li>The first time I do laundry without any of your clothing in the basket.<\/li>\n<li>The first time I realize I don\u2019t have to use the hypoallergenic detergent anymore.<\/li>\n<li>The first time I use it in spite of this.<\/li>\n<li>The first time I go grocery shopping and don\u2019t have any items on the list that you\u2019ve added.<\/li>\n<li>The first time I look over at your chair and have a moment of confusion, wondering where you are.<\/li>\n<li>The first time someone tells me I don\u2019t have to be strong any more, and I wonder why they can\u2019t see that I was never the strong one.<\/li>\n<li>The first time our cat jumps on your desk, and I don\u2019t need to yell at him because you have no more medications for him to knock on the floor.<\/li>\n<li>The first time I say \u201cmy\u201d instead of \u201cour\u201d and I feel a sickening twinge inside my chest.<\/li>\n<li>The first time I feel a societal pressure to stop broadcasting my grief, in spite of absolutely no one telling me to tone it down.<\/li>\n<li>The first time I see a couple in public and have to bite my tongue to keep from telling them they need to stop taking each other for granted.<\/li>\n<li>The first time I lie when someone asks me how I\u2019m doing, because they shouldn\u2019t have to hear me ramble on about how one of the strongest, bravest, most formidable women I\u2019ll ever know isn\u2019t here any more to be my foundation and I am falling apart without you.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The first time I say \u201cgoodbye\u201d instead of \u201cI\u2019ll be back.\u201d The first time I see your family without you. The first time I go to your favorite restaurant alone. The first time I can look at your picture without crying. The first time I mix present and past tense when talking about you. 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